I haven't posted much lately, so I decided to share what I'm thinking about right now. Just so you know, that's not a picture of me. It's a picture of my thoughts.
I've actually been thinking quite a bit lately about how I see myself versus how I actually look. Having lost just over 45 pounds, I think I don't have an accurate view of my body. Truth be told, I never really have. I always think I am thinner than I am. Sigh.
Did you lose weight on purpose, and over what period of time? I think that makes a difference in how we "see" ourselves, don't you? I've lost 70 pounds since 2009, when I had quadruple bypass surgery. I think that, before the surgery, I never realized how much weight I had gained since I was a teenager. I still imagined myself as fairly slim ... in my mind. Now friends are commenting on how skinny I've gotten ... since our lockdown started last year. For a dozen years, I have carefully lost an average of six pounds a year and kept it off by eating properly and exercising. I confess that I have NOT been exercising as much when it's only "me, myself, and I" doing it. The motivation is missing, alone in my apartment with a cat who isn't interested in exercising with me. Doing Zoom exercise classes just isn't the same as doing it with friends downstairs in our Fitness Center every week. But the Fitness Center, along with all other public spaces in our buildings, has been closed for a whole year now.
I've actually been thinking quite a bit lately about how I see myself versus how I actually look. Having lost just over 45 pounds, I think I don't have an accurate view of my body. Truth be told, I never really have. I always think I am thinner than I am. Sigh.
ReplyDeleteDid you lose weight on purpose, and over what period of time? I think that makes a difference in how we "see" ourselves, don't you? I've lost 70 pounds since 2009, when I had quadruple bypass surgery. I think that, before the surgery, I never realized how much weight I had gained since I was a teenager. I still imagined myself as fairly slim ... in my mind. Now friends are commenting on how skinny I've gotten ... since our lockdown started last year. For a dozen years, I have carefully lost an average of six pounds a year and kept it off by eating properly and exercising. I confess that I have NOT been exercising as much when it's only "me, myself, and I" doing it. The motivation is missing, alone in my apartment with a cat who isn't interested in exercising with me. Doing Zoom exercise classes just isn't the same as doing it with friends downstairs in our Fitness Center every week. But the Fitness Center, along with all other public spaces in our buildings, has been closed for a whole year now.
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